After sitting under the heat pump on my laptop for a good 3 hours straight I've realised how routine my days have become
Wake up at 7am
Go to school
Come home
Eat whatever I can scavenge from the fridge and cupboards
Sit in front of laptop
Watch tv
Worry about all the homework I haven't done
Go to sleep (without doing the homework)
It feels like I'm stuck in deja vu. I want to change it up but what more IS there to do really?
It's not like I can just go out.....it's raining
It's not like I can do my homework....it's boring
I haven't read a book in so long, I think I'm becoming illitertae...i mean illiterate. is that how you spell it? illiterate? is that sounds sounding really weird to anyone else right now?
...
I want to be one of those people who just take charge and be independant. Write schedules for themselves, and keep busy. Get organised and work to their fullest potential.
Maybe I should ban myself from the couch for the next few days, see how that goes.
Probably not that well since my 'banning self from youtube' didn't even suceed for one day but I'll try.
Sitting on the floor sounds more fun anyway
I think I've lost some of my self motivation through these years so It's time to get it back
I need to prove myself to myself.
'change is something that the world offers in order for you to become stronger'
Nadeeja
nearly 18 and still as insane as ever
maybe I should stop sitting under the heat pump all day?
9 comments:
Yes. It's all the heat pump's fault.
Change isn't something that will come by quickly. Let yourself ease into it. And get yourself started. Thats the first step.
And to be honest, I see you as a motivation because it seems like no matter what you do, you always do your best and to the fullest. unlike me of course. although you think you lost your self motivation, you sure have given others theirs.
But thats one man/woman's opinion.
:D
And you're weird. illiterate sounds fine to me.
:P
AW thanks Ain :D yeah it's gonna be hard the change thing. I think I need more general self motivation in general life that I need. I mean school projects or creative things I can do but when I'm doing nothing it's like my inner self screaming to be more active.
HEY!....okay yeah weird I am
u finally made a blog OMG!!!!
omg that is exactly how I feel sometiems, a day passes and I do nothing, and another, and another, and you feel bad but don't havve the willpower to change it, you fear doing it in a way. and you see some people around you who you just know is going to ace every exam and everything, and you ask why and where the difference is, you see it, but still cannot change to become like them.. sigh
My standards have deteriorated so much.. I don't know why and I'm seriously worried for my future ahhaha.
Desh you are better at self-discipline than I, I've seen what you can do, you can achieve what you want, you're probably worrying too much :) you too smart to be in any serious trouble ^_^
You're always my awesome friend who writes long cards and aces exams if she means to do so, with super duper neat handwriting. I agree with ain, you put in effort and everything you do ends up bring like, of elite standards ^_^ Don't feel scared :)
AND OMG
HEAT PUMP
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I SIT AROUND THAT THING, SOOO BAD
and just go
AAAAAH, warmmm....
and read a book, and fall asleep on my beanbag.. you are not aloonnee.... ahahhaahaha
I NEED TO BUY A BEAN BAG hahaha we're the same then. yeah the sitting on the floor idea didn't work. my butt would freeze if i sat on my floor.
lol bess you're awesome. and you my friend shouldn't be scared of your future. you're so smart and yes i've known this from yr 9 when I first met you in maths. When I read your blog i just go HOLY COW she's awesome at writing. I think my standards have deteriorated, but i think that's cos i've gotten lazier. Just wait till we are actually in the future, let's dominate the world together in our awesomeness :D
hahaah Yeah!!!!
Beanbags are comfy.. you fall asleep in themm.. XD
except mine gets thinner and thinner I swear, where did all the polystyrene balls goooo!!!
XD
^_^ thanks Deshy T_T
Really? my blog is just rants and more rants.. and K-pop macros and whatnot.. hehe
I'm glad you like reading it though OwO
I've gotten soo lazy.. some days seriously I come home, get nothing done, gets to like 11, 12 and I go to bed.. = =
I'm so good at talking myself out of doing work.. omg..
lol
HAHA YES WE SHALL, and demand that SHINee come to visit your blog XD
Hmmmm the polystyrene balls ESCAPED!! Maybe they watched toy story and got the idea off that? it’ll be another hit movie
POLYSTYRENE STORY!
How interesting would that movie be?
Well I like your rants :D rant away I say
Why did that sound Shakespearean?
We are the same. I always talk myself out of work and then watch videos all day till like 11 when I realise that the teacher would be checking the homework so….back of the book to the answers I go.
School kinda laid back for the moment seeing that we just finished mocks but I can see the mountain of tests in the horizon still
Omg yes shinee please read my blog!
ROFL yeah~
it's the same.. nothing happens and you get these bouts of anxiety where you're like why did't I do anything earlier!
hahaha polystyrene story = =
and shakespearean?
To rant or not to rant.. = =;;;; *ahem*
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